Firestorm 2008

At least that is what the media has been calling it. I had a moment of sheer ridiculousness today and it made me ashamed of myself. It all started because a girl from another store was supposed to come help us because we were having trouble with one of our coworkers who kept calling in. Well he ended up showing up and I texted the girl and told her not to come and she never got it, so she showed up. I felt bad for her coming all this way so I called my boss and asked her if Zannah could stay, and I could go home. The fires around us are getting really intense and the smoke has given me some nasty headaches the past few days. My boss said yes and I quickly left and was happy because it meant that I could go to Elevation, our night service, which was good since I missed the morning service due to a freeway closure. Well about 2 hours later I got a text from my friend Isaiah saying that Elevation was cancelled due to the fires (and here is where the ridiculousness comes in) and I actually got irritated about it. A minute later I felt EXTREMELY selfish and felt ashamed at my behavior. People are losing their homes and firefighters are working their tails off to help save people's lives and try to prevent people from losing everything (which MANY have already lost) and here I was upset that church was cancelled. Then I began to think about my behavior throughout the past couple days and although I have said some prayers for the victims and the fire fighters, I have spent more time complaining about the smoke and feeling sorry for myself because it gave me headaches. I have since made a new resolve that I will pray fervently for them and NOT complain about anything and instead be grateful for all of the things I have and that my loved ones are not in harms way. It is so sad to me that it takes something like this to really appreciate the things we have in life.... I am now going to be a dedicated prayer warrior and pray for all of the people involved and I STRONGLY suggest that everyone take a little time to pray for them as well!!!